Where To Go From Here

To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
-Hamlet

Here I am again at square zero. It doesn't look like we'll be paid yet again, a coworkers paycheck bounced and mine didn't come at all. I don't particularly care about my job one way or the other, not like the last job which was so bad by the time I got home I couldn't remember what I did all day.

I found a couple of great posts today that brings this to a head.

"Do what you love!" That is what a lot of people say to go and do. Great. The last thing I loved doing was electrical engineering, but that career has turned into pretty much a dead end, the stuff I was good at, embedded systems design, has pretty much all been outsourced across the ocean so there isn't much work for someone like me anymore around here.

I've tried starting my own business but that failed miserably. I am not, yet, a salesman. I just took a self-employment workshop which I'll post about soon. The guy running it was really good, but there is one minor problem, he's been a salesman since he was a kid and so he couldn't really tell us how to become salespeople which is a very important part of running a business.

What are my dreams? I would like to provide well for my family, not just my nuclear family but our extended families as well, at least in an emergency capacity.
• I want to write books that make learning math, English and history interesting.
• I want to provide developing nations with fundamental knowledge so families can improve themselves. The biggest problem seems to be corruption stealing an idea doesn't leave you without it.
• I want to design homes that make use of all the things we've learned since the 60's about building good, efficient, effective homes.

But most of all I just want to feel like I am doing something worthwhile, that makes others' lives better too.